Sunday, April 8, 2012

OS : Wild Repentance


Sorrowfully, his thoughts became weak and unknowing..."how do i tell her...how can i ever right what i've done..."

As he desperately searched for an answer...Khushi walked into their room...

His voice was tortured with anguish..."Khushi?...."

Nervously turning to face him, she quickly spoke..."please...Di is waiting for me downstairs..."

He cautiously strode towards her...

His nerves were setting his body on fire...

This was the moment he needed to tell her..."that night ...when we...when I threatened you into marrying me......I...I was going to tell you how i REALLY felt...I wanted to tell you THEN that I...that..."

He brought his oppressed eyes up to hers..." I am so in love with  you Khushi..."

Her eyes became flickered with something that he couldn't understand..."w...wha...what?  No...no..."

His heart felt like it was being beaten...

He lifted his hand to her face, even though he saw her flinch away..."All this time I've regretted my actions...I've been in love with  you this whole time..."

Khushi aggressively pushed him away..."This is how someone treats a person they love!? No...no....NO!  You will NOT ever make me believe!"

Khushi started backing away from him...

Arnav quickly stepped forwards only to see her entire frame shrink back with disgust for him...

"K...khushi...Khushi...no...please...I swear that I..."

"Do NOT come near me Mr. Raizada! I entered this marriage with a 6 month contract...of which there is only 7 days left...when this ends, I want NOTHING more to do with you...I don't want to see you..."

"Khushi..." his speech was barely intelligible...

"I don't want to hear from you..."

"Khushi please..." he inched closer

She quickly moved past him towards the poolside..."And I don't to hear you mention my name again!" 

Arnav searched her eyes for some, ANY glimpse of what he used to see....nothing. 

Disgust and Defiance now filled her.

"Khushi...I...I remember...what i...what i saw in your eyes for me before..."

She only backed away further..."DO NOT come any closer to me... I am repulsed by the fact that i EVER felt something for you..."

He felt himself begin to die slowly...

"I regret ever caring...i regret ever trying...and i regret EVERY second i have spent with you..."

She turned her back to him and trudged slowly away  without looking back...

Arnav fell to the ground...his hands  scraped on the bricks...

His morbid fear of losing her had now became a reality...

Barely able to breathe, he pulled his body along the ground with his hands...he reached the table where his glass was set...he knocked it onto the floor and heard it shatter...

Looking over, he grabbed the sharpest shard and put it in the palm of his hand...

Without any pause, he closed his hand firmly around it...feeling the sharp sting spike through his hand...

As pain filled his body...

As blood filled his hand and dripped down to the ground...

His mind began to show him ALL hurt he'd given her...

His harsh cries were overtaking him...

"I did...I did that to her!? Oh my God...How DARE I say that to her..."

The memories were becoming unbearable...

His heart was being crushed whilst remembering the monumental amount of pain he'd afflicted on the woman he loves...

A new anguish started to mutilate his body..."...oh god...no..6 months will end soon...I...I can't Lose her....."

Unable to handle anymore memories, he lifted the shard of glass that was in his hand and pushed it hard onto his forehead...

"NO!!! HOW DARE YOU DO THAT TO HER ARNAV SINGH RAIZADA!!! HOW DARE YOU!!! NO! Khushi...." feeling utterly tormented, he dropped his hands to the ground in front of him...he could feel blood dripping down his face...

"I love her...I love her......" his voice became whisper quiet as his sorrow pelted his heart



4 comments:

  1. sorry India forums is not working awesome os very heartbreaking loved it loved her pain and disgust at him well written

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  2. written brilliantly :) another story to get addicted to!! can't wait to see what happens next!!
    Sonia x

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  3. You will continue this right? it was so painstaking.. love it!
    so beautiful

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