Thursday, May 24, 2012

SS : 6 Months Till A Kiss Part 19



After seeing Shyam disappear down the road he felt a huge weight lifted off his shoulders...

He recalled Shyam’s last words to him...”Don’t worry Saale Saab...I’ll be back...Tell Khushi I’ll miss her...”

Arnav’s heart clenched...

“All this time, Khushi had to deal with...with THIS...”

Everytime he realized another one of his errors, he hated himself a little more...

As he walked back inside...He saw the family sitting in the lounge...

“Chote? Where did...?”

“He has gone away on business, and I tried to get him to stay back to say goodbye to you but he wouldn't wait...”

Arnav hoped that he could make his sister slowly hate him...

Although she looked dejected, she smiled slightly saying...“Oh...that’s okay, I know his work is demanding...”

Arnav’s eyes kept drifting to Khushi...

He could see how rattled she still was...

And yet, her smile, her attention to his family, continued to astound him....

“Bhai?” Akash interrupted...”We need to get going, we have a meeting today...”

Reluctantly, Arnav and Akash, left for work...


…..................................


“Why is everyone so quiet tonight?” Nani asked during dinner...


Akash and Payal were quiet...


Anjali was quiet...


Arnav and Khushi were quiet...


Anjali looked around at everyone...”Nani, you are right...Chote? Akash?”


“Di, Payal is just tired and extremely edgy with too much noise...so I’m just being quiet for her...”


Payal’s cheeks went bright red...”I’m sorry Nani...” she turned to Akash...”I’m sorry Akash...this pregnancy is making me quite irritable...”


Nani smiled...”I understand...”

“me too...and I’m about ready to pop” Anjali said laughing...



Arnav had hardly heard a word...


He intently watched Khushi push her food around on her plate...


“How about we all watched some family videos after we’ve finished?” Anjali suggested...


“Oh that’s a wonderful idea Anjali bitiya!! we will do that!”

…................


As they made their way into the lounge, Payal sat beside Akash...


Nani and Anjali stood discussing what movie to start with first...


Khushi was going to wait for Arnav to sit, so she could distance herself...


After spending the night in his arms, after getting smacked across the face, after blurting out her love for him...she felt overwhelmed with pressure...


But Arnav stayed standing.


Khushi felt silly waiting and finally sat down in the middle of the couch that was closet to Anjali, hoping that Nani and her would sit on either side...


And she was almost right...Anjali came to sit next to Khushi...


Arnav took his chance and seated himself on the other side of his wife, draping his arm over the back of the couch...


Khushi hadn't realized and sat back straight into Arnav’s embrace...


She felt his arm around her, and her eyes slowly ascended to his...

That was the last she remembered...



When the movies started, she gradually fell asleep...


Arnav was in heaven...


His heart soared knowing that she felt safe enough to sleep against his heart...


She inhaled deeply and rolled slightly, facing him even more...


“Chote?” Anjali whispered...”I’m going to go to bed now...did you want me to help you wake her?”


Arnav shook his head as his hand smoothed Khushi’s hair...


His eyes then wandered around the room...“When did Akash and Payal leave?”


Nani smiled...”when you were staring at Khushi bitiya...which was during the entire movie...”


Arnav’s cheeks flushed...


“Don’t worry Chote...I love seeing this side of you...Goodnight...” Anjali smiled and Nani helped her upstairs...


Arnav didn’t care if was going to be there all night...


He’d hold Khushi forever...


Di’s Bedroom door slammed shut, and Khushi’s eyes flew open...


She tried to sit up and only fell back against his chest...


He felt her body tense up...


She quickly righted herself and turned to face him...”I...I’m sorry...I slipped and fell...”

His frowned, the deep crevice in his brows displayed intense concern...”Why are you saying sorry...?”

His memory answered the question for him...


Every time she had fallen against him in the past, He had reacted with anger...


“Khushi...”


She remained still...


“I know it may take you awhile to realize, but I love you Khushi Singh Raizada...to have the heartbeat of my life lay back against me...” his hand traced a line up her arms...”is better than feeling my own heartbeat...”


Leaning forward he moved around to face her...gently holding her he said... “Now be a good girl and hang on to me!”


Her arms moved around his neck and she tried to hold on...


Lifting her effortlessly, he carried her to the bedroom...


She grimaced slightly as she lay her bruised cheek on his shoulder...


Arnav tried to stay calm for her sake, but his body still throbbed with a vengeance...


When they reached their room, Arnav laid her gently on the bed...


With one final, torturously light kiss, he moved away...


As they both readied themselves for bed, Khushi got up the nerve to ask him...”What really happened with Shyamji?”


Arnav had his back to her when she spoke...”He is staying at his office...and He won’t be coming back...”


“Really!?”


Arnav spun around to see her reaction...


“Yes...”


Khushi felt immense relief flood through her...


But no sooner had her heart soared, it plummeted...”But...But what about Di? What will she say? 
How will she react? How will she cope!? …”


Worry and anger started to spiral through her...


“Khushi...did you REALLY think I would let him stay within 100 miles of you after what he did!?”


Khushi stood up straight...”But what about Di!? What are you going to say to her?! How is she going to react?! Oh God!” her eyes shot out at him...”I care about Di!!! I don’t care what happens to me!!!”

“I care what happens to you!!!” his voice was becoming harsher...


Her concern for his sister meant so much to him, but her flippant disregard for her own welfare was infuriating him...


She began to pace around the room in a panic...


“Khushi...Stop worrying...Di is fine as long as she has all of us...”


She knew he was right, but still the mental health of her heavily pregnant sister in law was worrying her immensely...


He started towards her...


“Khushi...I spent my whole life putting my sister first...even when she had Nani, Mamiji, Akash...everyone around her...But you are my wife...I will be putting you first for the rest of my life...”


As he reached her, he pulled her into his arms and she rested her head on his chest, melting into his embrace without question... “I’m afraid Arnavji...everything is in such a mess...I don’t know how to help everyone....” She closed her eyes.


“Khushi you’re not supposed to help everyone...Di is safe, you are safe...THAT is what is important to me...”


Deciding to distract her, nudged her head off his chest. “Let me take your mind off things for a while, then.”


“What? How?” her lips trembled as though they already knew what was coming...


Arnav lowered his lips slowly to hers, giving her plenty of time to back away if she wasn’t ready...


But she closed her eyes and felt herself anticipating the feel of him...


His kiss seemed to calm her almost instantly...


When he withdrew, he heard her say...”I’m so sorry Arnavji...”


His eyes were still closed...”Why?”


“If it weren’t for me, all this wouldn’t have happened...”

Dark penetrating eyes sent waves of electricity through her...


“This is NOT your fault Khushi...Don’t ever say that again...”


Khushi yawned and Arnav smiled at the cute way her mouth opened and closed...


Leading her towards the bed, he leaned in and placed a lingering kiss on her cheeks...


The urge to do more was beginning to rage inside him...but he retreated and said, “Goodnight...my wife...”


As he turned to walk away, he felt her hand close around his...


His breathing paused...the last time she did this flashed in his memory...

Holi...



He moved to face her...”Khushi?” his voice was quiet and wary...


“I...I’m feeling...” she lowered her eyes away...


Holding her chin, he lifted her gaze to his... “Are you okay?”


He barely heard her as she answered...”I’m...I’m...after what...happened...could you...”


Her next words he heard loud and clear...


“Stay with me...please...”


Arnav didn’t say a word...


He lifted her in his arms and lay her down...


Climing onto his side, he laced his arms around her...


As his arms tightened, she felt all his body's strength; the powerful legs, the massive shoulders, and she shuddered with anticipation at what he might do...


He felt her tremble and realized he would need a will of iron not to plunge into her and take all the sweetness for which he thirsted, but he wasn’t about to lose her trust, or her love....


Her heartbeat quickened and her pulses beat wildly as she lay with her cheek against his chest. She could hear and feel his heart beating so strong and loud, she instantly realized the effect she was having on him.


She smiled into the darkness.


His wildly beating heart told her better than words that how deeply he was in love with her.


She felt a deep thrill go through her.


She knew he wanted her immediately but was curbing his desire to please her.


It came to her suddenly that she wanted him.


Khushi wanted to explore him and feel every part of him, from the great slabs of muscle in his back to the fiery loins from which rose that burning shaft.


Shyly, she reached her hands up behind his head instead, to run her fingers through his hair that lay on his neck, and as she reached her lips to him, he met her more than halfway and took her mouth in a demanding kiss that led to a hundred more.


He held her more gently now, tucking her head under his chin. "Sleep now, Khushi..."


…......................


Squawking birds and streaming sunlight filled the sky...


Khushi awoke slowly, coming to the surface of consciousness drowsily.


She had never felt so safe and warm in bed before.


Then she realized Arnav held her from behind, cradled in his massive arms.


She could not believe that he had not tried to make love to her...


She was still clad in her nightgown, although it gave little protection from the hot, muscular male body pressed against hers.


She stirred and tried to slip from his embrace without awakening him, but his arms tightened and drew her back as he said quite firmly, "No..."


She sighed and relaxed against him, happy to remain safe and warm a while yet...

However, Arnav was now fully awake and not content with her back.


He turned her to face him, smiling down at the disheveled picture she made...


The tousled hair suited her; she was wildly beautiful.


He whispered, "I discovered a secret about you last night."


"What was that?" she blushed.


"You may correct me if I am wrong, but I believe you enjoy being kissed,” ...His eyes hungrily focused on her mouth, making her aware of his desire to resume where he had left off in the night.


His lips began by brushing hers lightly, teasing her deliberately.


His lips strayed to her ears, then back to her mouth.


He kissed her eyelids gently, then he sought her lips again.


This time he got the response he had been trying to evoke.


Her mouth fused to his, not letting him escape this time.


Very deliberately, his lips traced down her neck.


His hands slipped the loose nightgown off her shoulders, and his lips followed, going ever lower until her breasts were fully exposed to his avid gaze and touch. 


“Oh God...You’re divine...”


As he kissed the tips gently, her nipples budded and stood erect, proof that she responded to his lightest touch.


Khushi let out a nervous, strangled moan...


He lifted his eyes to hers...”Khushi...are you alright....” His concern touched...


“I’m...I don’t know...you...you’ve...”


“I’ve hurt you before, I know...but I have nothing but love in my heart for you...I love you...so much...I know you want and need release Khushi...Let me give it to you...” 

She ran her hand up his arm, noting the strength there, and stopped her exploration at his shoulder.



It was strange to be touching him this way, this intimately, and yet it was wonderful at the same time. 

She licked her lower lip and dared to say, “When...when you...kiss me...I...”


He leaned forward and brought his lips to hers.


Her bare nipples tingled.


His actions were gentle.


In no way did she feel rushed or compelled to continue, and that fact alone served to relax her further.


She responded to him and followed his lead when he wanted to deepen the kiss.


While his lips caressed hers, his hand covered her breast and massaged her with soothing circular motions.


The tension eased from her in slow increments, and this time when she felt his arousal press against her, she didn’t shy away.


He continued to kiss her, still gentle even as she became aware of his growing passion.


And, surprisingly, she realized her body was beginning to anticipate what was to come.


For once in her life, she decided she wouldn’t analyze things.


She would let her feelings lead the way.


She wiggled closer to him and brought her hand to his jaw, noting the roughness of it.


It was another reminder of how he was a man and she was a woman.


Without warning, he gently squeezed her nipple...


The action sent a spark through her.


She hadn’t imagined what it’d be like for a man to touch her like this.



His mouth left hers, and she let out a contented sigh as he kissed her neck. 

She waited in expectation for him to kiss her breasts and moaned when he did.


She didn’t know if these sensations were new to him but they were to her, and she found it hard to focus on anything but what her body wanted.


His mouth trailed lower...


Lower...


Gently, he pushed her knees apart and moved between them.  


She was shaking...


Her heart thudded as she heaved in desperate breaths...


Her fingernails were digging into her palms.  

He saw her distress and rose above her...


“It’s going to be okay,” he said.  


He leaned in and kissed her mouth softly.  


Hesitantly, she kissed him back.  


“I know you’re nervous...just breathe...”

"I want to let go...but I can't..."

He palmed her breasts for a long time before he lowered his hands, his mouth following.  


He was no longer waiting for permission to touch her, but she didn’t seem to mind.  


He kissed her breasts and licked her nipples, but didn’t linger.


He kept going, sprinkling kisses on her tummy until his lips hovered above her throbbing mound....  


She shuddered and he tucked a hand gently between her thighs.  


She jerked but she didn’t pull away and neither did he.  


He pushed a finger shallowly into her, taking his time, being as gentle as he could be.  


She whimpered and tried to muffle it with her hand.  

He wanted to call her on it, but didn’t want to push her too far.  



Instead, he withdrew his finger and painted her hard pearl of nerves with her own juices, causing her to cry out again.  


“I’m going to use my mouth now...just relax...”


His prayed silently that his heart wouldn’t give out on him...

He was about to taste his wife...Khushi...His mind felt like it was going to explode...


No longer even trying to muffle the sounds she made, she whimpered as he lowered his head and blew on her.  


Slowly, he extended his tongue and licked her...  


She bucked and he held her down, watching her carefully for any hint of fear.  


When none came, he swiped his tongue through her folds, moving slow, making sure she felt every 
second of it.  


Then he opened his mouth and savored her...He would do whatever it would take to please her...


He concentrated on her scent, her taste...there was nothing more precious to him than her...


He groaned when he felt Khushi’s fingers tangle in his hair, pulling and pushing him as her pleasure spiked.  


He let himself go a little more, getting a touch more aggressive, using his teeth to add an edge
of pain to her pleasure.  


Satisfaction glowed through him when she released a lusty moan and pulled him even closer.  


She was amazing.  


Sensual and sexual.   


He wanted to devote his life to savoring her body and its responses...


She, in NO way, deserved what he had done to her....


Her body deserved to be cherished, posessed, loved...


Her heart was more valuable than all the money in the world...

He glanced up to her face...


He could see her holding back...she was scared...she was nervous...she wanted the pleasure he could give her, but felt like she didn't deserve it, and he knew that was his fault..


“Well that is going to change...” he thought...


He was going to make her come, and this time he wasn’t going to let her back away out of fear or shame.  


He flattened his tongue and flicked her throbbing peak over and over again.  


And then he sucked the little bead into his mouth letting his tongue linger on the tip...


Her entire body tried to escape...”Oh...Oh God, Arnavji...No...”


Her body was shaking hard now.  


She stiffened and pressed her hands to his shoulders.  “Arnavji...I can’t...”


“You’re going to climax now Khushi...” he said.


“No, no no—” she breathed.  “I can’t.”


“Yes...You’re going to...Right now...I love you...Come for me...”


She tried to shift away from him and, praying he was doing the right thing, he clamped his hands
on her thighs, holding her where she was.  


She stared down at him, her eyes wide with realization.  


“I’m not going to hurt you, but you want this...You know you do... I’m your husband...Give it to me.  Please.”


She stared at him, her mouth trembling, her expression clearly that of desire warring with fear.  


His rubbed the pads of his fingers against her soft skin and all of a sudden she leaned her head back, closed her eyes, and sank back into the cushions, putting herself completely in his care.  


Arnav felt his heart explode...

Swiftly and repeatedly, he flicked her clit with his tongue while he inserted his fingers inside her, thrusting in a strong, quickening rhythm.  


He spoke against her flesh, telling her how brave she was, how beautiful. 

Khushi bit her lips as an almighty flow of sensations began to overtake her body and soul...



Her fear escallated at the same time as her desire...


Her scream started out as a musical moan that wound higher and higher the tighter her muscles stiffened.  


He felt her inner walls clench violently around his fingers. 


She jerked and shuddered as she came, and her scream reached maximum volume, that felt like healing balm for his heart...  


Holding her down he kept her orgasm going and going, licking and sucking and penetrating her 
until he’d wrung every last bit of pleasure from her.


Finally, she collapsed back against the cushions again.  


He licked gently again and her body jolted like a live wire...


He licked her a few more times and rubbed his hand in soothing circles on her stomach to calm her.  


When he looked up, she had her hands over her face and she was struggling not to cry.  


He knew what she had just given up to him...

Arnav moved until he lay beside her and pulled her into his arms.  


“It’s okay, Khushi....it’s okay...Cry all you need to...But please...Let me hold you.” 

She held herself stiffly in his arms for a minute, but then she pulled him closer and sobbed.


“I’m so sorry, for everything I did and said that hurt you sweetheart...I love you...I love you so much...”


A faint smile appeared on her lips as she clung to her husband...


He held her...not expecting anything from her...


She knew he must be aching with need, but he didn’t say a word...


Khushi looked up...”Arnavji...”


His eyes lowered to hers...


“Arnavji,I love you...”

And then he kissed her...No demand, no passion, no force...


His lips gently pressed to hers...


Arnav wanted to fall to his knees and thank her repeatedly for forgiving him, for allowing him back into her heart, and most of all, for loving him back...


“Don’t you need...”


“I don’t need anything...You just rest here for a moment...do NOT get up...and I’ll have a quick cold shower...” he said grinning...


“But don’t you need to...”


“Yes...badly...but only with you...and that will be for another time...”


And he disappeared into the bathroom...




6 comments:

  1. Hot hot! Awesome! Love how he cares for her so deeply...

    thanks for writing this beautifully :)

    Ams..

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  2. Wow so beautifully written & loved how he took all her needs into consideration.
    Loved it alot x x

    arnavluva - IForums x x

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  3. awwwwwww - he gets a cold shower.. Loved this update - and I LOVED that she told him I love you too... :)

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  4. really hot for Khushi but Arnav gets a cold shower!!!
    he shows how he put her wants and needs before his, that is so loving.

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  5. oh wow the love he feels for her is just so .....wow...

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  6. awesome update loved it very hot and cute awesome

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