Saturday, July 28, 2012

FF : I Am...FREE Part 19


Khushi stared deep into his eyes...


All the months she'd spent filled with pain and trying to wash Arnav Singh Raizada out of her mind apparently was time wasted.

The moment his lips touched hers, that remarkable connection flared to life.

And making love was like diving into a fire and begging to be burned.

And it wasn’t just her body responding.

It was everything.

Arnav held onto her tight...

He’d been such a stupid shit to toss judge her, and abuse her like he had.

He needed her back, all of her, more than he wanted his next breath.

His overwhelming urge to heal her heart was beginning to choke every one of his senses...

“I'm the biggest fool, Khushi...” he whispered

“A stupid, idiotic fool. All these months I was sure you hated me. Sure that you wanted...him...and now...now look what I've done
..." he placed his hand gently on her arm, over her injury..."

He could feel his heart breaking for her..."But I’m going to convince you not to hate me, I'm going to give you someone to trust...."

Arnav's phone started to buzz and he quickly silenced it.

It was Akash asking why he wasn't at the office yet...

Arnav's grip tightened on his mobile.

He had no idea how they were going to handle this...

For all he knew, Khushi could wake up angry with both of them and resentful that she’d let herself respond to him.

His family had all told him to let her go.

And as for NK...

Arnav's body stiffened...

How close had he come to losing her to NK?

"Is that why she's scared?" he thought..."Did she start to fall for NK? No...she said she loves me...And..." his thoughts wandered as he remembered...

Her body's response to his...

Her nipples that pulsed uncontrollably ...

Her lips trembling...

Her tight sheath frantically clinging to him...

"No...there is another reason..." he thought...

She was still in his arms, breathing slowly, eyes closed...

"Khushi...you still haven't answered...why are you so scared..."

And there it was...

She pushed away from him, pulling the sheet over her..."Stay away..."

Arnav's eyes turned thick with terror..."Khushi? What's wrong? Talk to me!"

"No...no...this was wrong...I was told...I mean..."

Arnav lunged forwards, holding her tenderly..."You were told? Told what? By who? Khushi, I swear on my life that I love you and only want to protect you..."

"No! You...you took advantage of me!"

Arnav could see her searching for a way out of telling him...

Gripping her tighter he growled..."No Khushi...you WILL tell me what has frightened you so...you can't say I took advantage of you when I remember your soft lips suctioned to mine..."

Anger flashed in her eyes..."I found your kisses repulsive! I barely felt your lips on mine...and I don't NEED to tell you anything! I am capable of protecting myself in certain situations. I know very well now how to react when someone strikes!"

"When someone strikes?" he said

She suddenly knew she had said too much...

Khushi began to writhe...

"Khushi...Shhh, calm down...we can talk about it another time...Khushi!"

But she continued to push and pull...

He moved both hands to cup her face and hold it still as his mouth took hers in a hungry kiss.

The moment his lips touched hers, his body reacted...

He let his tongue trace the line of them, then whisper over the surface.

When Khushi opened her mouth as if to protest, his tongue darted in, sweeping the hot, wet inner surface.

God, it was like tasting the finest brandy, sweet and sharp at the same time and very, very heady.

She wanted to pull back from him but the longer he held the kiss, the more he felt the resistance drain from her body.

Her hands, which had pressed to his chest to push him away, slipped to his upper arms and gripped his biceps, her fingers hot against his skin.

He wanted to slide his hand beneath the sheet and caress her...

He wanted to peel away her defences until all her fears, worries, and desires were exposed.

Mind was jumbled as the healing touch of love began to encompass her...

Arnav yearned to sweep her senses away, but he needed to pay attention to the physical signals from her so he could bring her to the point where any resistance would be token at best.

And so he poured everything into the kiss, using his tongue to wake up the tiny bundles of nerves in her mouth, seducing her with his lips against hers.

Drawing her heart and mind into his love and protection...

She was everything he was not: kind, gentle, strong, soft, warm.

But now, because of his ignorance, ugliness had invaded her existence.

Regret and guilt thundered inside him... 

She deserved be sheltered, protected, loved...

Not imprisoned, hurt, or abused...

He had to breach the bars that were around her heart...

She needed someone to lean on, someone that would show her that he had only HER desires and needs in mind...

Khushi was lost amidst the passion...

But soon, her senses woke up...

She instantly noticed the change in his actions...

There was no roughness in his touch — her husband was too experienced a rogue to make that mistake.

But neither did she feel tenderness.

Instead he exercised a seductive mastery over her.

There was a harshness in his kiss, as though she were an enemy that had to be conquered...

"He's...he's going to hurt me.....!" her mind screamed

Arnav held her tighter, noting her realization...

Leaned forwards, he pushed her back over his arm that was wound tight around her waist...

She arched in abandonment, suddenly losing herself in his touch.

She was acutely aware of his every movement..

And with his every touch, her panic lessened...

She became aware that each caress was to please...her.

Their kiss deepened and grew, moving from desperate conquest to searing intimacy.

Arnav felt her respond, giving a low moan of approval as his hands moved caressingly down her spine and over her hips...

She felt overwhelmed, yet had no desire to stop.

She could almost feel herself sliding down a steep slope into a mysterious morass of pure feeling and sensation.

He might not have succeeded in destroying all the barriers that existed between them, but at least they had been fractured a bit.

And he wasn't going to stop until her heart was laid bare...





7 comments:

  1. aawwwww poor arnav and khushi they both are suffering :(
    but like u said so what if he wasnt able to collapse all the barriers atleast he managed to fracture them... baby steps it is!

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  2. Hi Sarah, hope all is well! Thanks for the pm! I am a bit stumped by Khushi's behaviour, she's hiding something that woud cause her to hurt herself. Hope that she was not physically hurt whilst in prison! Woud really like to see the healing begin. She s such a big hearted character I really cannot see her in this state of despair! Let's see how the story pays out! Maybe the loving would start the healing!
    Cheers
    Mayad

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  3. Awwww khushi hurt,.....something happend in the jail.....shes been warned, by who?????

    Who did she meet in jail to create such barriers around her......

    God cant wait for next....

    Loving ur arnav who is so intuned to reading her response......:)

    Avni.....:)

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  4. awesome,really liking it.especially the mystery part

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  5. I am falling in love with this FF !!
    I feel so bad for them !! :(
    Update soon.

    PollyTrolly IF

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  6. poor arshi :'(

    Shilpa on IF

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  7. Khushi is hiding something that woud cause her to hurt herself.I hope that she was not physically hurt whilst in prison!I would really like to see the healing begin. She's such a big hearted character.
    Great update!

    (tinsel)

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