Saturday, November 17, 2012

FF : I Feel Everything Part 32






3 weeks...


3 whole weeks, and Khushi still had nightmares...

Arnav had agreed to see a councillor with her, and they had gone in for sessions 4 times a week...

During the 3 weeks, he had stopped her from leaving at least 10 times...

Her fear was still evident...

And now, as he lay beside her, holding her hand, he refused to close his eyes..."How much longer...? How much longer will she have to be on the receiving end of all this pain..."

Her bruises had healed...

In fact she looked incredible...

Barely needing a hint of make up...

But he knew, all too well, that the real bruises were inside...

His musings were interrupted by her hand squeezing his...

"...no...no...please..."

Arnav held her hand tight and moved closer..."Khushi...shhhh...Khushi it's Arnav..."

Although he knew there was no point saying who he was...

She had woken up from countless nightmares and had not only been fearing Shyam, but also fearing him...

His heart was yearning to have her call to him for help...call to him for protection...call to him for love...

But that only happened after he had tried to calm her, to the point of almost breaking down himself...

And he assumed that tonight would be no different...

Until she suddenly sat up fast.

Breathing rapidly...

Arnav slowly rose up next to her and braced himself for another round of heartache...but if this is what it took, he'd do it forever...

He watched as Khushi turned to him, only this time, there was no fear...

With a cry of relief, her arms flew around his neck as she clung to him with all her strength..."He's trying to take me away! He's taken me to this dark room...He's getting closer..." her fingers clawed at him in a desperate attempt to get closer..."Arnavji help me! Please!"

Holding her firmly with one arm, he leaned back and switched on the light...

As brightness spread throughout the room, Arnav quickly came on top of her and focused on her eyes..."Khushi..."

Her gaze had locked onto his...

All movement had ceased...

He kept his voice whisper quiet..."Khushi?...look...it's me...focus...No one has taken you...No one..."

"Make love to me..."

He heard her words loud and clear, but didn't know if he should believe them..."W...what?"

"Your love pulled me through the last time...It can do it again...Please..."

A dam began to break inside of his soul...

He had been praying, longing and pleading for her to turn to him...

And now that she had, he was terrified...

More than anything, he wanted to be the one to help her through this, but the fear of failing began to strangle him...

"Please Arnavji...Pl..."

Before she could speak out her pleas, his mouth pressed down to hers...

No sooner had the kiss started, he moved back again...

"Khushi, I want you...I want you so bad that it hurts...but..."

He stopped as he saw tears fill her eyes...

His grip on her wrists tightened...she was delicate, feminine, and completely under his control.

Seeing her so empty had nearly killed him, and now...

"No..." he thought..."No way in HELL is that going to happen again! NO!"

Arnav felt her tremble when he lifted her to sit up...

"Arnavji...you..."

"Shhhh..."  He traced his thumb over her bottom lip... "You are so beautiful..."

With him touching her like this, as though she was the most precious thing in the world, she actually believed it was true.

Even more than that, when Arnav said it, Khushi felt like the most beautiful woman in the world...

Her heart began to heal slightly as the thought..."He still thinks I'm beautiful?"

He must have seen something on her face, because Arnav pulled her up his body until his lips brushed her ear.

“Don’t look at me like that. Please.”

“Wh...why?”

His teeth closed over her earlobe, just shy of actual pain.

Arnav soothed it with his tongue and then kissed down her neck.

“Because I can see you questioning my words in your head...don't question me...you are MINE Khushi Kumari Gupta Singh Raizada...”

She whimpered she felt the cool early morning air on her skin...

"And...every part of you is beautiful..." his hands began tracing over each place as he named it.

“Around your hips, perfect...and up your stomach...” He stopped just short of her breasts, his breath harsh in her ear.

Khushi thought she might scream if he didn’t touch her, but she couldn’t bring herself to say it.

He knew though...and slowly the fullness of his hands covered her breasts...

His palms were rough against her nipples, and she arched her back, needing more. “Arnavji…”

“You have the most perfect breasts...the moment I touch any part of you, I become enslaved...and then..." his hold loosened on her breasts as his fingers lightly brush her nipples..."And then when I feel your nipples become painfully hard from my touch...all I can think of doing sucking them until I am drunk on your flavor...”

Too soon, his hands moved away, leaving her aching.

“But, to tell you the truth, there’s only one place I want my mouth right now.”

It wasn’t until he touched the waistband of her panties that she understood.

"Oh...but..."

He could feel her body trembling as he slid any remaining fabric away...

"But nothing...I need to taste you...I need to have my mouth on you...my tongue inside you..."

His words, once again, stunned her to silence...

A single finger traced her opening and, despite every effort to stay still, Khushi's body couldn’t help opening her legs a bit wider.

Arnav pressed his forehead against her shoulder, his body shaking as his finger entered her.

It wasn’t enough, and when he withdrew, it pulled a whimper of protest from her.

Arnav’s voice was so low and hoarse, she could barely hear him.

“I'm going to take my time, taste you, play with you, and when I finally let you come, you’ll damn near black out...and there will be NO ONE else filling your head, except me...”

Spreading her wetness, he found her clit, circling it and then withdrawing, before starting the process again.

Over and over, as if he had all the time in the world.

All the fears and uncertainties that had been plaguing her, had now dispersed...

She reached for him blindly, digging her nails into his upper arm... “Please.”

He went still and she had the wild terror that he’d leave her like this, on the edge and nearly mad with wanting.

But then she bowed up as he plunged two fingers into her, using the his wet mouth on her clitoris to relentlessly drive her to oblivion.

“Oh, God Arnavji...”

As the aftershocks hit her, he gentled his touch until it was almost too much to bear.

He felt her body weakening from the climax and pulled her close...“Just let me hold you for awhile. Please.”

Arnav rolled next to her and wrapped his arms more securely around her body.

She wanted to argue, but the desire couldn’t hold out against the languor spreading through her body in the aftermath.

Arnav stroked her hair and tried to calm himself down...

"Arnavji..."

His eyes opened...

Moving his hand down her leg again, he knew that there was no physical way to stop them making love...

Khushi whimpered as he spread her legs wide enough to have access...

Well aware she was overly sensitive after just coming, he kept it light, until she was making little movements, rubbing herself against him on the upstroke.

He was pretty sure she had no idea she was doing it— and would have been horrified if she realized she was...

"Khushi..." he pressed a kiss to each corner of her mouth

Leaning over her, he spent time kissing and suckling her breasts until her nipples ached and her sheath wept with need.

She began to moan and cry...

His lips captured hers, tasting her almost reverently...

Slowly he ended the kiss, and his lips travelled down her neck, nipping at the tender skin, tasting then moving lower, once more capturing a sensitive nipple in his mouth.

As his tongue flicked over the taut nub, his hand moved over her mound, his fingers sliding between the wet folds once again...

Her eyes widened as he moved down her body...

Her face went crimson and she closed her legs, looking everywhere but at him.

Arnav slowed down...

He wasn’t going to dive on her like a starving man, even if that’s how he felt right now. He nibbled and licked, each little sound she made unraveling his control further.

Still, he held on.

Finally, finally, Arnav settled between her thighs, right where he wanted to be.

Khushi unconsciously tried to close her legs but he held her hard and started hat her face..."No Khushi...you are beautiful. Perfect."

Just as she was about to speak, He lowered his mouth...

She jolted when his tongue laved over her hard clit, gasping at the sensation.

It was his last thought before he gave himself over to the glory that was his wife...

She trembled underneath his mouth, her body so responsive to his every touch...

He remembered back to their first night together...

She had surrendered her virginity to him...

 Arnav felt yet another possessive rush barrel through him.

Holding her firmly with one arm, his other hand gently lifted to tease her nipple...

His tongue circled and flicked before sucking her hard bud into his mouth.

Khushi was gasping...

Her belly rippled with impending release.

Arnav watched her heavy-lidded eyes as he spread her wide and bent to run his tongue between the swollen lips.

Khushi arched against his mouth.

Arnav raised his head long enough to see her hands fisting the sheet...

Her body's response was honest and true...

Her nipples were reddened and erect, her head arched back, her chest was rising and falling more rapidly as the pleasure intensified.

She was the most sexually alluring sight he’d ever witnessed.

His need to pleasure her magnified.

He wanted to hear her scream in ecstasy, know that it was him she wanted, needed.

His finger probed at her entrance, circling the wet silken flesh then pushing inside the warmth.

Another finger joined in, feeling the heat of her wet walls, searching for that secret spot.

Her body arched in answer when he found it.

Her hips rocked in time to the stroking of his hand, his fingers penetrating deeply inside her.

Leaning closer once more, he took her clit in his mouth, licking and sucking at the hard bud.

He heard her suck in a fierce breath...

He felt the vibration that raced through her and stroked faster and deeper inside her, sucking her clit into his mouth and flicking his tongue rapidly over it.

“Oh…god…Arnavji!” she panted a moment before her muscles began to spasm around his fingers and wetness streamed from inside her.

Before her climax could end, he straightened and pushed the head of his erection against her squirting centre...

She felt him push himself deep inside her body...her fluttering inner muscles yielding to his width...

Her orgasm became long and drawn out...

Not giving her body time to recover, he leaned forwards and kept his thrusts deep, hitting her gspot hard...

Arnav ran his hands up her luscious body, gently suckling her swollen nipples.

He could feel her body begging...

Her lips trembled...

The ongoing sensations were making it impossible for her to speak...

Arnav strained to keep his impending orgasm at bay.

Khushi's muscles pulsed on him, tightening then releasing.

Her hips rose and fell, meeting each thrust, keeping the rhythm steady and slow.

Both of them were breathing harder...

Arnav wanted...NEEDED her to say that she needed him...

“I can’t...I need...”  she gasped, her hands clenched into tight fists, her body arching up...“Please...Arnavji...I need you...”

The effect of her words and the sight of her pure driven need sent his spirit soaring...

He grabbed her hips and pulled her to him, impaling her on his full length...

Khushi gave a harsh cry, making Arnav smile through his tears...

Finally...FINALLY he felt a gleam of hope...

The indestructible spirit of his wife was not completely destroyed...

He hadn’t ever needed a woman the way he needed to possess her, and that frightened him.

Arnav pressed his weight into her and interlaced his fingers with hers...

Automatically, her hands clutched onto his, making him harder yet.

Her response was a long, low moan.

Arnav kissed her softly as he moved inside her...

He felt the tremor of her incipient orgasm to vise more violently around him ...and he stopped.

 “Arnavjiiiii!” His name was a sob of frustration.

He held her tight, not moving.

“Khushi look into my eyes!"

Her entire body was on the brink of a climax, her every muscle throbbed with need...

The second her line of sight hit his, he growled...“What do you want Jaan...TELL ME?”

She shook and trembled, her voice rasping ..."I need you Arnavji...I'm so heartbroken...I need you...I need YOU! I need you!"

He slid out of her almost all the way and pushed back in slowly.

Her hands released the sheets she had been digging her nails into...

Arnav pulled out slowly again, and thrust back in harder this time.

Her arms flew up around is neck, holding on tight...

"Yes...Hold on...hold onto me Khushi..."

Arnav slowly withdrew once more...watching her whole body shake...

He speared her so long and hard that the moment he was fully inside her, she climaxed, hard.

Her sheath convulsed around him desperately trying to suck him in deeper...

She screamed out his name and what he heard was Khushi's voice....Khushi.

The woman who knew him best.

The woman who trusted him...

Who was kind and generous and thoughtful and who had always been able to make him laugh, to whom he had confessed some of his most intimate thoughts and concerns...

He felt the strings of his heart vibrating with the power of what he felt for her.

He wasn’t the same man as when this had started.

Arnav quivered on the edge of release...

He gritted his teeth, and with his heart pounding at his chest as if his would break through his ribs

He pushed up on his hands again, keeping up a slow thrust and withdrawal.

Khushi's eyes glittered with tears as she looked at him...

Her pupils were dilated, making her eyes black...

He thrust a little faster, drawing out the spasms inside her as he spoke...his words were breathless... “I won't fail you again Khushi...I swear..."

His heart twisted in his chest as he bent his head to kiss away a tear that escaped when she blinked.

She tried to reply, but the only sounds she could make were whimpers as her body shuddered with sensations...

He surged forward...long and hard...

Khushi made a tiny sound in the back of her throat as he gave in to all the physical sensations coming at him.

He gave in to the emotions, too.

Her sweat slick body moved with his, her arms tightened around him...

As Arnav watched her head fall back,  he drank in her face, her parted lips until he had no choice but to give in to a climax that shook him hard and rolled him through a wave he wasn’t sure he was going to survive.











 PRECAP - 


Arnav rolled to his side letting his hand wander to Khushi's side of the bed...

In an instant, his eyes opened...

She was gone...

He sat up fast and looked around haphazardly... 

Almost ready to scream out her name, he jumped to his feet...

That's when he saw her.

His pulse raced even as his heart plummeted...

Tears filled his eyes...

She was curled up in a ball, outside near the pool.

He sucked in a long breath and held it until his heart stopped pounding.

Quietly approaching her, he saw that she was fast asleep...

"Why...why are you out here jaan?..." he cried inwardly...

Still deeply asleep, she gave no resistance when he lifted her.

He pulled her soft body against his, breathing her scent into his lungs.

"I will break away those strongholds that are keeping you in fear Khushi...slowly, surely...I will do it..."


4 comments:

  1. hot as hell!!!
    krrp up the good work

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  2. Awesome update. Loved it!! please continue soon

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  3. Amazing update. Loved it.

    -desisweetheart9 from IF.

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