Friday, January 4, 2013

FF : I Feel Everything Part 34



Khushi moaned as Arnav pressed his mouth into hers...

The morning light warmed the blanket beneath her, and she heard a light shower began to sprinkle outside...

Raindrops were spraying on the glass doors, slowly being illuminated by the  sun...

Arnav could feel her body becoming languidly relaxed...

He slowed the kiss and moved back to look at her..."Khushi...?"

She slowly opened her eyes ...

Arnav smiled slightly..."Goodmorning...again..."

Although her expression was calm, he could feel her hands clinging onto his neck...

"Arnavji? Are you...are we going to...I mean...we...together...now?..."

He began to shake his head..."shhhh...I just want to hold you..." he leaned in and touched his mouth softly to hers..."and kiss you..." he rested his body weight on one arm and reached behind his neck to pry at her fingers..."Relax your hands sweetheart..."

Khushi tightened her grip momentarily..."No..."

"I'm holding YOU..."...slowly, she allowed Arnav to take her hand...

He lovingly kissed her palm and shallowly sucked one of her fingers into his mouth...

"I can see the questions in your eyes..." he whispered against her palm..."We are going to be alright...You ARE alright...and I love you...Always...

"I..." Khushi paused...

Arnav felt his bruised heart swell with pain seeing her hold back from him...

"I ...love....I love you Arnavji..."

Smiling through the tears, Arnav gently moved to the side of her, keeping his one arm draped over her belly...

"What would you like to do today?"

Her brows wrinkled in confusion..."What do you mean?"

Arnav let out a long sigh and laid his palm flat on her stomach..."I mean, what would you like to do today? As in, you and me...me and you...together..."

"But..."

He felt her breaths speed up under his palm...

"But Arnavji, you...you need to...your office...your company...with everything that has happened...I..."

Arnav stopped her right there, and placed his finger against her lips..."No...No Khushi. You are only allowed to think of recovering, relaxing, and Happiness..."

She started at him, speechless...

"Okay, I'll make the decision for today..."

He scratched his head pretending to think, making Khushi smile slightly...

"How about this...we go and spend the day with your family...they can feed me till I explode...you can cry and hug everyone a bunch of times...then we can come back and just spend time together...alone..."

He saw her slightly blush and smiled...

"...You would be willing to take me to see my..."

Letting out an exasperated groan, Arnav sat up..."Khushi, I AM WILLING TO DO ANYTHING FOR YOU! You know that! I love your crazy family! I love YOU! And I love seeing you smile when you're around them! So stop asking if I'm willing to do things for you! Why can't you just..."

He stopped, feeling completely mortified that he was yelling at her...

But before he could offer her any form of apology, he saw her scowling...

"You don't have to yell at me! I know you love me! And I know you have anger management problems!"

His eyes lit up at her outburst and he smiled brightly..."That's my Khushi! Finally you talk back to me!"

Her scowl disappeared once it dawned on her how she had spoken, and she let her automatic reaction shine forth...

She smiled and began to laugh...



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Khushi was fast asleep in the car on the way home...

Her eyelids began drooping the moment they left the Gupta house...

With cheeks sore from smiling, and a tummy aching from laughing, Khushi let her subconscious take over...

As they were leaving, Garima pulled Arnav aside and asked for him to take extra care of Khushi...

Now as they drove home, Arnav felt stronger and more confident that soon, very soon, their life would be settled once again...

He recalled the tears in her eyes when she embraced her family...

They had finally softened towards Khushi and all was back to normal...

Arnav let out a small laugh..."Like that family could ever be normal..."

He drove carefully, glancing at Khushi every now and then...

Khushi's brows wrinkled up when the car eventually pulled into their driveway...

She squirmed in her chair as her eyes flickered...

Arnav quickly walked to the passenger side and opened the door...

Leaning over her, he unbuckled her seatbelt.

The clicking sound made her eyes whip open, and all she saw was how dark it was...

Her fear kicked into high gear when she felt someone's arms wind around her...

Going completely stiff, she began to tremble as she held her breath...

"No..." she gasped almost in dread...

Arnav  closed his eyes momentarily..."Doesn't she know it's me? Can she STILL not tell?"

Keeping his voice quiet, he crooned to her..."Khushi...Keep calm Jaan...It's just me...We're home...we went to see your family...remember?"

Craning her neck, she slowly opened her eyes...

When she saw her husband, her Arnav, clearly, her arms flew around his neck and held on as she began to breathe fast...

"Shhh...shhh...it's okay...it's okay Khushi...You did so well just then...you knew in your heart that it was me who was near you...you trusted my voice..."

Khushi held on tighter...

"Hey...hey...it's ok..." he whispered against her hair..."Let's go inside now...you're tired..."

Slowly, her arms loosened and he moved back to look at her...

He was about to lift her to carry her in, but Khushi intervened..."I'm okay Arnavji...I can walk in... I'm awake now..."

Right now, he wanted to fly her to the moon and back at how quickly she was able to trust him, but he remembered what the counsellor had told him, not to push her trust too early...

She took his hand and they walked inside together...


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Arnav was sleeping soundly until he heard the rain begin again outside...

He opened his eyes momentarily  but instead of seeing the rain, he saw something else...

Jerking up, he sprang to his feet and looked once again in terror out towards the poolside...

Khushi was outside once again...

Sitting in the corner, on the cold stone floor...

He quietly opened the door and started towards her...

Her clothes were still dry...

"She only JUST came out here?" he thought

Crouching down beside her, he delicately placed his hand on her shoulder..."Khushi?"

Arnav was expecting her to be spooked by his sudden appearance, but she lifted her head and stared straight on into his eyes...

"Why?" she whispered...

His heart shattered...

"Why me? What did I do wrong?"

Arnav quickly shook his head..."No Khushi...No...you did nothing..." his voice choked up..."You are beautiful, you are pure, and you did nothing wrong..."

She suddenly got to her feet and moved back from him...

Rising steadily, Arnav reached for her hand..."Let me take you inside...out of the rain..."

"No..." she rasped, yanking her hand away...

"Khushi..." he felt his patience draining..."Come inside with me..."

Arnav moved closer, but she sidestepped..."Leave me alone!"

Keeping up the chase, he followed her every move..."I'm not going anywhere Khushi...This is ME...your husband..."

She kept moving back until her back hit the brick wall behind her...

His eyes held hers...

The dark night was only lit by the moon, and each others eyes...

"Arnavji..."

The way she raggedly spoke his name set off fireworks inside his soul...

His eyes roamed over her face, her neck...

Her thin night dress was now clinging to her skin from being soaked by the rain...

His hands clamped firmly onto her waist, startling her momentarily...

They slowly began to slide, purposefully and firmly, towards her chest...

All the while, his eyes were glued to hers...

Khushi felt his hot hands touch her...

As his palms covered her breasts, she moaned out loud...

Pulling the strings that were tied at the front of her , he loosened the fabric and bared her chest to his view...

Passion surged through him at the sight of her full and naked breasts with hard, pink nipples just begging to be sucked...

He bent his head as he cupped them in his hands and kissed first one nipple, to then move on and lick the other.

She whimpered with pleasure, and he almost cried out her name.

He couldn’t think; he was consumed with need—need for her, only her...

He stood before her, suddenly unsure.

What was the expression on her face?

Was it fear?

Was it excitement?

"Slow down..."  whispered the voice in his head...

It demanded he stop and get a hold of himself.

"HELL NO!!!" he told the voice silently..."She belongs to me … no other … mine … my Khushi …"

He saw her eyes grow wide as his erection became harder than it had ever been....

She made a small sound and looked up at his face, her own so beautiful, so full with need that for a moment he couldn't breathe.

His mouth covered hers...

Her body’s sensations intensified...

He touched her breasts, he kissed her nipples, and she arched for him as she grew wet and that wetness soaked the soft skin between her thighs.

Her body was tensing as though ready to explode,  when his fingers began to explore the cleft between her thighs...

She arched and called out his name...

Arnav growled low in his throat  while he played with her wet opening with a style that made her pump into his fingers and press for more …

He took her on a journey of sensation as his kisses travelled over her breasts, returned once more and lingered at her nipples, and then made a path back up to her lips...

Her whimpers now accompanied the uncontrollable tremors and shudders that swept her body.

His dark eyes gazed into hers...

He felt his shaft throbbing and bouncing, demanding their union, and her hypnotized expression set him burning.

Yanking down his sweatpants, he dug his fingers into the flesh below her hips, he hoisted her up, deftly moved her underwear aside, and drove himself deeply inside her.

Khushi buried her face in his neck and clamped down on her bottom lip as darts of pleasure shot through her center.

 Immediately, Arnav retreated and thrust forward, setting a feverish pace that felt necessary for their survival.

This moment, this moment was purely about the sensation of having his body surrounded by hers, except there was also the sound of her harsh intake of breath and that shook him to his core.

He wanted, no, needed, her to find pleasure in his arms again.

He needed to see to her every satisfaction.

He needed everything to be perfect once more.

Arnav groaned as the warmth of her body enveloped him.

Khushi involuntarily raised her knees so that her thighs slid tight around his hips...

He pushed her harder up against the wall, locking her pelvis into his.

The mineral scents of wet stone mixed with the floral scent of her drenched hair and the spicy cologne on Arnav’s shirt.

The sounds of rumbling clouds and rain pelting the world around them wrapped them in an elemental cocoon and almost made her believe they were the only two people on earth.

His mouth ravaged her lips, her jawline, her throat, her shoulder.

The tips of his fingers gripped at the edges of where he penetrated her, his large hands spreading her apart to allow him as deep as he could go.

She dug her nails into his nape, mimicking the bite of the bricks at her back.

Rain streamed down their faces, yet they didn’t blink as they stared into each other’s eyes, connecting their souls as he connected their bodies.

Khushi wasn’t capable of thinking at all when she was in his arms.

Everything melted away except this moment, this man who had the power to consume her until nothing mattered but the way he filled her, stretched her… completed her.

All too fast she felt her climax bearing down on her and she began shaking her head...

She didn’t want this to end.

She wanted it to go on forever.

Clenching her teeth, she tried to hold it back, but it kept building and building.

Arnav 's eyes burned into hers...“Let it come, Khushi... I want to feel you squeezing down hard on me...” he growled.

In another half a dozen strokes his teeth clamped down where her neck met her shoulder and she lost her last thread of control.

They came together in a cataclysmic explosion.

He roared as he spilled his hot seed into her clenching sex.

Khushi shattered into a million pieces, dancing in the thunderous clouds above for a time before falling with the rain back to earth… back to Arnav.

His lips gently cascaded along her neck and face, delicately brushing her  trembling lips...

"I love you..." he echoed endlessly...

When they’d caught their breath, he gently lowered her to the ground, keeping his arms around her until he was sure her legs would hold.

He cupped her cheek, kissed her lips, and said, “Now can I take you in out of the rain?”

Khushi gave him a small smile and nodded.

Lifting her into his arms, he held her close against his heart..."Come on. I’ll get you into a hot shower and then into a warm bed.”

She arched an eyebrow in his direction.

Grinning he said, “I don’t think I could ever get enough of you, Khushi, but no, that’s not what I meant. I just want to take care of you, and relax in a  warm bed with you, so I can hold you until the sun comes up.”

Was it possible to physically feel the moment you gave your heart back to someone?

Because Khushi was damn certain, that even though fear had been holding hers hostage, she had fully given her heart over to her husband once again...

And the spot where her heart should have been, wasn't hurting half as much anymore...








20 comments:

  1. I like this Arnav who takes care of his Khushi.. Finally there is little improvement.. She'll come out of her fears soon..

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  2. beautifully touching update... khushi's fears and confusion are very natural... arnav's care and concern for her are equally moving... nice to see khushi love and trust him enough to allow him to make love to her, despite her recurring nightmares! the ending was very touching as she gave her heart into his safekeeping once again and no longer felt the pain of loss! kudos to you for such an emotional piece

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  3. emotional, touching,caring and meltingly hot and sweet, how could Khushi resist her Arnavji??

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  4. Loved d update
    Thanx for pm
    --MISHTEE--

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  5. Loved d update
    Thanx for pm
    --MISHTEE--

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  6. Woah.. such an emotional, hot and passionate update..
    Loved it very much...
    finally dey r one again...
    i knew Khushi will survive dis vid all d love and care frm Arnav...
    Amazingly written update..
    thanxx for d pm :)
    Take Care

    ...---- "luvkkgasr"------ ...

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  7. thnx for pm..

    arnav is so caring...loving..cant get enough words..
    rmzu if

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  8. Lovely update. Arnav is really very caring.

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  9. awesome update!! poor khushi still she is unable to remove those scars of her life... loved how arnav is taking good care of her

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  10. awesome dear:)


    mandy15

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  11. awesome update glad she allowed him to push her fears of their intimacy away beautiful update awesome i missed your update ans when i check was only getting works from 3 months ago glad you are back

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  12. Awesome update..
    Hopefully arnav will give khushi the happiness that she deserves..
    arniepervaiz

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  13. finally!! i hope they will b fine soon... m disappointed in what akash did... glad that payal held her ground while talking about khushi

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  14. I jst love the fact that he wants to takecare of her i simply loved it amazing
    Barul lover

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  15. Beautiful update.

    -desisweetheart9 from IF.

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  16. loved the caring arnav
    -multifaceted

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  17. thanks..fabulous...well done
    ~udaymanyata07~

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  18. Great update love how caring arnav is. Hope khushi can get over her fears

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  19. love arnav caring for khushi....hope she comes out of her fears soon
    kamalapushpa

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  20. ."Like that family could ever be normal..."

    bhahahahhhaaa....i'm orin btw

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