Friday, March 29, 2013

SS : Take What's Left Of My Heart

WARNING -

THIS STORY IS QUITE CONTROVERCIAL
PLEASE BE AWARE THAT IT CONTAINS HEAVY THEMES


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"You're lying!!!!!!!" he screamed…

Khushi was shaking with terror…

She had seen him angry...but this….

The man who stood before her now was no longer human…

Stepping backwards, trying not to trip, she responded..."I’m...I'm not lying...I'm not! I swear! How could believe such a thing about me! I've told you for months now that I have had NO affair with Shyamji! I explained to you what I meant by asking him to leave Di…"

Arnav stormed forwards, making Khushi trip out the poolside doors…

Even as she fell, Arnav lunged forwards...

Not to help, but to attack.

She felt a sharp stab of pain as her head hit the bricks roughly…

As the pain surged through her, her broken voice tried to plead with him...

"Please...pl...please...Arnavji...please..."

Arnav grabbed a fistfull of the clothing covering her torso and brutally yanked her up…

Her pained cries unheard by his anger and rage…

"Don't you DARE call her Di! You have betrayed her! You have betrayed ME!!!"

Khushi's eyes widened…"YOU? What do you mean?!"

Pulling her roughly back into their room, he swiftly turned and locked all the doors…

Now facing her once more, he stalked forwards, his presence frightening…"I was in love with you…you..."

The way he said the last word was almost as if he would be sick...

Khushi felt as much joy as she did pain…"You...you were…"

Fisting his fingers through her hair, he threw her against the wall…"WAS! Was in love with you! I now hate you! I HATE YOU! The very sight of you disgusts me!"

Khushi felt her heart giving up hope, felt her eyes brimming over with tears…"Please...you have to believe me…Please..."

Arnav furiously slapped his palm on the wall behind her…"I don't have to believe anything you say! You're a fucking whore! YOU stole MY sister's husband! YOU had an affair with MY sister's husband!!!"

Hardly able to recognize her own voice, she endlessly repeated..."I didn't...I didn't …" 

Her vision began to blur, but Khushi assumed it was only from her tears…

But one thing she noticed plain and sure was that Arnav was now standing eerily still.
 
He leaned his head in..."You want to hurt my sister…?" his breathing was hotter than fire against her face…"Then...I will hurt YOU…"

Alarm shot into Khushi's entire system…

She hurriedly tried to push away from him and break free, only to be overpowered by Arnav's inhuman strength…

Deftly grabbing two handfulls of her clothing, he ripped the fabric apart with ease…

Oh God no! Not this! Please!

"No...NO!" she began to scream…

Covering her mouth with his hand, he yelled, "Shut up! I swear if you make another sound…"

Khushi bit her lip hard, drawing blood that sent the taste of acid rushing through her…

His hands shoved hers behind her and he used his body to hold her against the wall...

Harshly pushing her legs apart, he tore away any inhibitions and heartlessly shoved two fingers deep inside her sheath…

"Arghhh..." 

Her tone was muffled.

Even though she bit her lip, she could not hold back her groans of pain…

Increasing the pressure of his grip, he leaned closer, curling his fingers mercilessly inside her…"I said...don't make a sound…"

Her eyes gushed with tears as Arnav pulled her by her sex towards the bed…

She was turning pale, and her heart was shattering...

Pushing her chest down, Khushi fell back against the mattress.

He quickly withdrew his fingers, scraping her walls with his nails as he pulled...

Snarling, he felt his anger boil over...

She was moist, but not wet…

Not that she should find his abuse arousing, but just knowing that Shyam had probably made her drip with pleasure made his hate skyrocket even further…

Khushi tried to focus, but her head was pounding and her body was now spasming with pain...

She could see his blurry figure climb onto her and lift her legs, holding them apart with an iron grip...

Trying to summon her voice, she  could only manage gasps as the blurred figure pulled out a large long erection that had her terrified...

With one last attempt, Khushi's voice broke with her pleas..."No...no...please...please Arnavji…"

Spreading her legs wider, knowing it was hurting her, he growled..."What's wrong, MY WIFE!? You don't want to give your husband your body!? One that you would GLADLY give your lovers!!!"

Khushi felt the last spark of her hope diminish…

And it happened.

Without care or concern for her, he forcefully speared his phallus past her labia and into her dry core, tearing her virgin centre with a brutality that even made his body shake...

Her insides felt like they were being scraped with sandpaper and her sickened, pained groans were now seeping into his own consciousness...

He saw her dry trembling lips, her tear stained face, and her eyes...

She held eye contact with him, this entire time, and it unnerved him...…

Arnav felt his own heart shatter with agony as he forced himself upon the women he was still in love with…

But blinded by rage, and fuelled by hate, he was unable to stop…

Her eyes…

He pulled out, and thrust deeply back inside her...

And he saw the life drain from her eyes…

He saw the honest pain...

OH FUCK WHAT AM I DOING!?

His entire body seized up…

As he looked into her eyes, realization began to hit him like a tsunami…

"shit...no...no…" he breathed, as he shakily pushed up onto his palms…

She still was looking hazily into his eyes…

"Khushi…"

She blinked, and an endless stream of tears flowed from her eyes…

Arnav tried to breathe…"Khushi...I...Oh...my God…"

His heart and soul began to shrivel up…

His mind was raging with thoughts…"Oh my God! Oh shit! What have I just done!"

Utterly shocked and disgusted by his actions, he pulled his softening erection out of her and stumbled away from the bed…

And as he did, his eyes connected with her core…

Blood.

A LOT of blood.

She was a virgin...

Angst penetrated his soul…

"Oh God, No, no, NO!"

He looked downwards at his own body and saw the blood stains on his own flesh…

In seconds he was beside Khushi, sick to his stomach over what he had done...

She shivered as she now stared into space…

His hands were shaking, trying to help but frightened to touch her...

"K...Khu...Khushi...Khushi, listen to me...I'm…" he was desperate to help her, and quickly wrapped her in the quilt cover…"Khushi…" he slowly and gently pulled her into his arms…

Just as her gaze hit his, her eyes slid closed and she fainted…

In all his life, Arnav had never felt such guilt, such pain, and such remorse…

It was literally eating him body and soul.

"NO...Khushi...I'm...I…" he rasped…

From the corner of his eye, he spotted another blood stain…

On the pillow where Khushi's head had been laying…

"What…?" he gasped as he lifted her slightly…

Carefully moving her hair, he saw a deep gash on the back of her head…

"Shit...shit, shit, shit….."

The panic inside him was now in charge.

Placing her delicately on the bed, he rolled her to one side as he pulled a pillowcase off one of his pillows and carefully dabbed the wound on her head…

"Oh Khushi, I'm...I'm...How did this hap…?" his heart shot full of pain even further as small grains of stone fell from her hair…

He remembered how she fell…

He remembered not caring...

Cursing himself, he pulled on a robe and rushed to call for a doctor…

A mere 10 seconds later, as he waited for the doctor, he felt her body start to shake once again…

"Khushi?" he whispered…

Her eyes were closed…

Her breathing was steady…

But her body was beginning to shake…

He soon heard a loud, echoing knock resound in the house…

"Hari Prakash! SEND THE DOCTOR UP HERE! FAST!"



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"Her body is in shock...I'm a bit surprised, seeing as her head injury isn't that severe…"

Arnav felt nauseous.

He knew why her body was in shock.

"Normally it takes something quite serious to put the body into a state of shock…"

Worry paled his face, his blood curdling inside him.

"She doesn't appear to have a concussion…see how she is once she wakes up...if there is anything you're still worried about, then just call me and I'll come back…"

Arnav stared at Khushi...

"Mr. Raizada?..."

His own emotions were now clenching at his throat..."She...I...I was…"

"The injury on her head is not serious, it looks like a deep gash, but it actually isn't, the head bleeds moreso than any other part of the body...so it looks more serious than it is…I've given her a shot that should calm her nervous system down, she'll be asleep for awhile..."

Arnav was barely able to listen…

I just...I just forced myself on Khushi...on the woman I...the woman I...I love...on a...a virgin...

His head was bombarded with questions...

How could she be having an affair if she were still a virgin?

He recalled that she didn't try to fight him…

Even though he had basically raped her, she didn't try to fight him…

It was as though she was ready to take punishment…

Punishment, even though she was innocent…

The doctor had quietly slipped out and Arnav was left alone once again with Khushi…

He walked towards her…

Frightened of her.

Frightened of what he had just done.

His anger had been the cause of many things, but this…

He would never forgive himself for this…

Staring down at her, he felt immense waves of possession begin to overtake him…

He saw her innocence, and her purity...

"I heard things wrong...I MUST have...I...I can't...but...but I saw her and Shyam...but...what if I did get it wrong?"

A driving need to protect  her from further harm filled his heart…

"Protect her…" he scoffed at himself…"I just abused her! ME! And now you want to protect her you fucking idiot!?"

More than anything, he wanted to hurt himself.

With the inward pain he was already feeling, he wanted nothing more than to tear into himself and cause double the amount of pain to himself that he'd caused her…

Her…

Gazing back at Khushi, he cautiously peeled away the blanket that encompassed her…

There was so much dried blood around her thighs...

"I...I...I did...this..."

Quickly covering her back up, he bolted to the bathroom…

His stomach erupted with a fierce burning…

He loathed himself...

Now that his stomach was empty, he gargled with mouthwash and quickly doused a washcloth with warm water…

Just as he was about to go back to her, he heard another voice…

Shyam.

As Arnav peered out, he saw Shyam standing in the doorway, staring at her…

He was just about to rush out when he heard him speak...

"Khushiji...If only you didn't love him...I was willing to offer you so much...I was willing to offer you everything...but what do you do? Stick up for the person keeping us apart, Rani Saba...All for what? The love of a man who will never love you back! I am the one that loves you…Why couldn't you love me? Why do you have to love Saale Saab…?"

Arnav felt as if all the air had been sucked from his lungs…

"She loved...me?"

Shyam was about to say more, but soon heard people calling for him and smirked as he left the room, closing the door behind him…

Arnav instantly exited the bathroom and rapidly relocked all the doors…

When he turned back to Khushi, his heart felt as it if were a thin hollow shell...

"She...she will never love me again...not after this...not after…"

He felt his own head grow dizzy…

Stumbling to the bed,  he seated himself beside her…

With trembling hands, and a heart full of torturous pain, he gently lifted the blanket away from her body once again…

Then, lifting her leg with great care, and carefully used the warm washcloth to clean away the blood…

"So...so much...blood...I'm...I'm sorry...I'm so sorry..."

His heart was surging with love for her…

"I'm sorry, Oh Khushi..." his whispers were haunting in their sincerity...

All the misplaced anger was now transferred onto himself…

Hatred for himself began to grow and grow as he saw how red and grazed she was…

He remembered pulling inside her with his fingers…

His face began to burn as scalding tears created a path of fire down his cheeks…

"I...I...Khushi...I...How can I even ask for your forgiveness...How can I?..."

With an anguish he didn't know he could feel, he shoved himself off the bed and re-entered the bathroom…

The blood blotted cloth in his hand only made him feel sicker…

The height at his abhorrent behaviour disgusted him…

"How can I ever…How can..." he squeezed his eyes shut, his persona becoming overwhelmed with pain, "I love her, and I did THAT!?"

Opening his eyes once more, he stared at himself in the mirror, his eyes were now boiling with anger…"HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO HER!? HOW COULD YOU!?"

Unable to hold back any longer, he balled his hand into a fist and smashed it hard into the glass...



16 comments:

  1. omg omg the asshoul wtf is wrong with him
    i cant believe he did that

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  2. Shocked cant believe he would do have :0
    Looking fowrad to the nxt part
    She will never forgive him

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  3. really can't believe arnav did that to khushi

    he is gonna take a life time to make her forgive him

    plzzzz continue soon

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  4. Wow really cant believe he could go that far
    o now hes gonna beat himself up for the rest of the life time
    do continue

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  5. OH MY GOSH!
    that was an earth shattering
    how could he do this

    awesome

    update soon

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  6. hi sarah,
    just casually checked out your website for any new update on recapturing, but found this SS, awesome start loved it. cont soon. (IF user laksh65)

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  7. nice start
    arnav you did very bad thing...
    india094-if

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  8. OMG! What a beast! He is a savage! There is nothing he can do that can make this right. NOTHING! He just raped her!!! OMG! I hate this Arnav!
    Poor Kushi. She should tell EVERYONE in the family what he did!

    IF - kbtr

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  9. so this is a new SS? would love to follow it..
    although i have reservations forgiving a rapist! but i would really like to know how you have planned this story..
    and its very well written!

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  10. So this is a new SS?
    very well-executed.

    although i have reservations forgiving rapists whoever he might be,, but i would like to follow this to know how you carry it! because you are such a good writer. i want to trust you as a reader!

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  11. omg what a heartless big headed monster is arnav.. how could he do that to poor soul *crying* although now he crying seeing her state, there is no forgiveness for raping a girl ...eager to c how u planned to take this story forward

    -Shwetz- IF

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  12. He is a bad boy and cruel too! Hope he makes it up to her. And he heard the snake too! Continue soon.

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  13. I can't believe that Arnav did that to Khushi. How could he. Very well written.

    -desisweetheart9 from IF.

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  14. Man this is one intense story Wow !!!!!!!!!! That absolutely so cruel of Arnav !!! Hope he rectifies his mistakes soon ....

    Anumadduri ( IF )

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  15. what arnav did is wrong. but one thng i know is he will move earth and sky up and down to make her happy

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